Thursday, November 28, 2013

Giving Thanks.

The beginning of this week- A came home from work and told me. Some one we knew, not very well but well enough, had passed. I knew he had cancer. In fact he had had a surgery less than a week ago. He'd been delighted when I went to meet him in the hospital. " The prognosis is good"- he wrote for me since his tracheostomy prevented him from speaking. "The doctors give me at least 3yrs, but I'll show them how to beat it". Five days later, he was dead. The news left me shaken up. Made me realize how fragile and precious life is. And how obscure, the line between being alive and not. Though  Thanksgiving is not a traditional holiday in our family, today, I needed to look back at my life and give some measure of thanks. 

First of all, I feel blessed to have my life as it is today. There have been ups and downs, trials and tribulations. But that is what is meant to make us stronger. So I'll take whatever came my way and learn to be thankful. My past made me what I am today, shaped my dreams and hopes and expectations. I'll live up to them, and work towards a spiritual contentment, a sense of balance.

My biggest blessing in life are my two little ones. Everything I've gone throughs, the struggles, the successes and failures, are just a shadow overcome by their wide innocent smiles and genuine pleasure they take in me. I am thankful for them. And I am thankful to have their dad; the anchor that keeps my feet and soul  in place.

I’m thankful for great friends and the love of family, who provide support and camaraderie in times of need. They are my clear skies bright with sunshine that overcome all dark clouds, my laughter, and a shoulder for me to cry on. I would never be complete without them.

Finally, I am thankful for all of you. Many of you just names, without faces, but familiar as my own self. Those of you who provide your inordinate support, and suffer through my ramblings at times. And keep returning. I could never thank you enough.

So Thank you all. And wish you a very Happy Thanksgiving.

"When you drink the water, remember the well.” – Chinese proverb